Sometimes you just gotta boogie down, baby
Yesterday's email was all good and heartfelt.
Actually, I felt a little vulnerable there, to be totally honest with you.
A lot of my friends commented on my blog post about being broody by saying,
"Go for it. Have another baby!"
Anyway, that wasn't the point of the message.
I want to put more energy into my family.
My fun and crazy kids.
And all the stress, joy, chaos, and spontaneity about it all!
Time to embrace it more!
I know that in about 30 years I'll be exhaling in joy, so proud and happy that I took this time to be fully present with my brood.
I know it'll all be worth it.
When I first became a mother 11.5 years ago, I had a really hard time going through the change from being such a career-driven woman, in New York City, always thinking about me, me, me, into being a new mother and experiencing such a new reality with a tiny human being.
It was hard.
And really uncomfortable.
I didn't like it.
But I knew in my heart this is what I wanted to do.
Now, I'm overwhelmed with the same drive, the same motivation to make some changes.
Some very physical and concrete: a huge house renovation, which will require us to move out temporarily so the builders can get in there and get it done.
We'll be living in a small flat during this time.
The five of us.
What could go wrong?
Five very big and loud people who like to demand space and their presence to be known.
I find myself stepping into a familiar feeling of discomfort.
I'm really uncomfortable.
And I'm not liking it.
Thoughts of doubt are creeping in.
Thinking of the unknown.
How am I going to get through this?
The feeling of instability is very scary.
It's like a huge stretch and I don't think I can bend anymore.
Still, I'm standing my ground, remembering my purpose, my love for my kids, and how this time will bring me to a new place of freedom and joy in my life because I know it's what I want.
And that's the key.
I WANT so many things in life, and sometimes to get there, to be that person, well, it takes a little instability and stretching along the way.
So I stick to what I know works best for me.
Getting adjusted every week.
Creating my structure and sticking to it.
Choosing to do things that make me happy, and not feel guilty about it.
And, for me, it also doesn't hurt to have a nice glass of red wine every now and then.
Today, I've spent a big chunk of time doing things for my practice (like writing this to you guys).
And in between my thoughts I've been pausing to blast some good tunes, get up, and dance for 10 minutes just to get the blood to flow.
It feels good.
Gotta keep following my heart and passion. Stay on the path!
See you soon at your next adjustment!
Stay on YOUR path!
— Dr MaryAnne